The struggle for me, since I was probably around 12 has been to maintain a positive outlook.
Why so hard?
Because I see and feel the darker aspects of humanity.
I notice the shadows of humans, I sense them, and I notice my own, too.
Generally speaking, I’m more interested in getting to the Truth of the matter, no matter how ugly it might be then playing pretend.
In order to do that I must be honest about the capacity for the non-pretty, the uncomfortable, the harsh and destructive to manifest.
You know, the reality of being human.
Now – this is a difficult stance to have amongst much of humanity. A lot of woo-ish folks in particular. And it can be lonely.
People will fight to keep it light.
Which – well, if you really dig into it, the phrase, “fighting to keep the peace” just rolls off the tongue ridiculous.
But we have been conditioned to keep ourselves from meandering into difficult realms of feeling, as they invade our capacity to feel good.
There is no specific realm of the world that is immune to this form of bypassing. For example, one of my astrology mentors surprised me one day with her response to my questions, about how she handles people who might attempt to take advantage of her extremely variable sliding scale rate policy.
Her eyes crinkled and turned to slits as she vehemently proclaimed, “I believe humans are inherently good!”
Welp – ok? I mean, therein, to me, lies the problem humanity is faced with right now – an unwillingness to consider the darker elements of humanity. And there’s a thick layer of fanaticism on top of it, which asserts that idealistic views about human potentialities must never be questioned — “or else” you’ll witness the darker aspects of someone’s psyche, toot suite.
Resistance to being receptive to the potentialities of life: It’s a thing that we all do.
One of the most powerful things I learned in therapy was that it’s good to have a game plan when entering into a situation where human volatility is possible.
Let’s say you have a family member who is manipulative. And you kind of freeze up when they start showing signs.
Having a go-to, “If this happens, then I do this“ plan is incredibly empowering. You don’t have to get wrapped up in emotions – you just utilize your exist strategy.
In order to take advantage of a strategy, one must accept the need to have one, though.
It’s not comfortable, witnessing the subterranean aspects of the human psyche. The shadows can make you wish you hadn’t eaten a heavy lunch.
But anything less than receptivity to the myriad of ways in which human behaviour can manifest is denial of living.
I appreciate what the depths can teach us. Shining a light on the shadows of humanity informs us of things that we need to know. And do.
It’s why I’m drawn to astrology. Astrology is deep by nature. And Mercury is its ruler.
This being/entity was willing to go anywhere. Up into the solar-worshipping day time realm to deliver messages he went; Down into the depths of the underworld he traveled, which, though an unsightly task to many and the decor was shit (literally), the journey served the continuation of the story.
He didn’t have a preference about good or bad – he was just interested in keeping the story moving, by gathering and delivering information.
It was all just information to him.
I do believe our clinging to preference has gotten us into one hell of a pickle. Our obsession with maintaining a specific way of feeling has restricted our capacity to be realistic and patient – with ourselves and each other. And it’s kept us from being practical about what we need in order to survive.
We have been pouring our resources into reproductions of actual resources.
I think the eclipse this weekend is going to bring to the surface some long buried insights about how we’ve been restricting ourselves.
It’s an opportunity for expanded awareness about the need to make the emotional choice to let go of something we’ve been clinging to for a really long time, so we can commit to persistently focusing on something that will holistically sustain us moving forward.
Emotional shackles can be broken.
Allowing this process to happen may be gut wrenching to the point of constipation, literally and/or figuratively. But the reward of allowing the process of life to unfold – IE deep emotions to come up – will come in the form of insights on how to support your basic needs moving forward.
This is about realizing something within you is restricting your capacity to sustain yourself.
Intolerable subterranean feelings about said restriction can be what force you to let go of emotionally protective tactics that keep you from being realistic.
Whatever you do on the defensive that limits you is getting a light shone on it.
I see a need to push back in a practical, deliberate way. So you might need to ponder a strategy about how to kick out the walls that are caving in on you. And swap out your favourite shoes for a more sensible pair of boots in order to do so.
It’s not a time for revenge, but a time for strategy.
Dipping into financial astro – I see the power of big business, some forms of investments, scientific research, pharmacies, funeral homes, and pollution control activities being drained.
They just don’t have the life force energy they once did. Something could be disclosed that restricts their capacity to keep doing things the same way.
The collective relationship with these systems is being changed – there’s no way around it. But they will push back – they will fight to stay alive.
At the same time, financial systems, money, income, food, securities, loans and savings, coins, currency, other types investments are being given energy – power. Though it’s a bit of a funny thing, cause there is restriction – obvious ones – in these areas right now. But below the surface a transformation is happening that could help us, if we’re willing to find the balance between being unwavering and receptive. And use the power of our minds responsibly, via an emotionally informed yet level headed, long-term approach.
This is all a long term thing. We’re turning shit into gold. That doesn’t happen overnight. It’s a process. Alchemy.
It might be that there are days where all we can see and feel is shit. And the feelings might ramp up to the point of extreme. It could be really intense.
But something is being seeded at the same time. We’re utilizing the seeds of the past to grow something that will sustain us moving forward. Even if we can’t see it yet.
We just have to get through some really emotional experiences first.
What can I say? If we want to see the light, we have to be willing to visit the shadows.
Be like Mercury. Go where you need to go, to keep the story moving.