January 19, 2023
There’s wishful thinking and then there’s denying reality.
And look – reality is subjective. But consider this:
We are all biased towards our preferred outcomes.
We are willing to deny information that suggests the potential for certain outcomes, in favour of staying in our early-life curated bubble of how we’d like things to go.
We prioritize the reinforcement of our learned behaviours/view points.
This is willful ignorance. And everyone takes part.
Now it’s true, we do have a contribution to make towards outcomes.
For example, what we think about does inform our future reality. If there’s a learned mental pattern you run that says everyone is untrustworthy, you’ll draw in proof – ie people will prove to be untrustworthy in some way.
Same goes for thinking in a more optimistic way. If you affirm with a feeling of buoyancy, you’ll have more expansive experiences enter your life.
Your thoughts inform the outcome. They are like a magnet. The more you stew on it, the more it comes into fruition.
(Don’t need a scientifically stamped report for this to be legit. Try it and notice your experiences. Consider keeping a journal to convince yourself of the validity.)
But our ability to shape our future experiences does not mean ignoring incoming information.
We contain the potential to be delusional – to contort experiences in order to see things the way we’d like to see them – to serve our preferred interpretations of life.
These views feed into the channel we’d prefer out lives to consistently be tuned to. You know, the one where everything goes the way we think it should go.
Problem is, our “way” is, again, informed by early-life cratering – impacts of things that happened long ago.
So yeah – it’s tricky. Because we can get really stuck on certain channels. To change it requires developing a foundational sense of self that can handle seeing how we are trying to shape our reality according to comfort (everyone seeks comfort in different ways/feelings) and how we are being willfully ignorant.
Now, there are hard truths out there in the world, and within ourselves. And again, we do have some impact in how our lives turn out.
But at the same time that you meditate &/or focus on energies that are in alignment with your preferred outcome or feeling, there is a collective energy brewing that has a powerful impact on the trajectory.
The collective train is connected to a cloud bubble of thought which hugely informs what happens in the world.
So what I’m saying is, we need to be concerned about the things that aren’t in alignment with the outcome we’d prefer. And we do need to develop an energetic resonance that supports our evolvement.
But we must also challenge our propensity to focus solely on what we want to have happen and how we want to feel about life.
We need to work on developing a robust nervous system, IE the ability to intermingle with potentialities that have the capacity to alter our trajectory in ways we don’t really like, without drowning in them.
Basically, get honest about the ways we’re being delusional in order to adhere to our preferences.
Individuation has nothing to do with comfort and everything to do with challenging the structures in our psyches.
New age movements have done a good job of teaching people to deny the human experience. The focus is always on maintaining or clinging to a certain feeling.
This is where a healthy dose of suspicion becomes practical – where we can get curious as a cat about any inner or outer inclinations to deny life.
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January 14, 2023
Sling shot-ing is not the way.
So, a way of life has proven to no longer work. It has shown to be detrimental to the ability to live.
And the decision becomes, “I know! I’ll do the polar opposite!”
OK – so this shows an interest in wanting to know more about a way we’ve never lived. That we don’t know a whole heck of a lot about.
Showing interest in something new – receptivity – is supportive of life.
But wholly devoting oneself to a movement, cause or organization because the attaching of oneself to it fuels our egoic disdain for the opposition is not the way.
You get tricked, because it feels like there is movement in the movement. But it’s just another brick wall. A dead end that has you in the same place: Controlled.
How long can you complain about the same thing over and over again? Don’t you want movement?
Learning about something, without become unwaveringly devoted to it is healthy. Because you’re not giving your power away – you’re still allowing life to come in and alter your perspective.
Maintaining receptivity to new information, not god-ifying any of it is paramount. It may prove that some parts of the polarity movement, cause or organization you feel a compulsion to join, could in fact, be full of shit.
Sling shot-ing is fuelled by a desire to be saved, and polishes the shackles in a controlling relationship.
January 10, 2023
When you can sense what it’s really about, it’s hard not to get wrapped up in forming an opinion of someone’s efforts to feign ignorance.
The only path forward is to accept the human capacity to feign ignorance when they don’t want to be with + aren’t sure how to be with their current emotional experience.
Then we can tenaciously vow to become more aware of the areas in ours lives where we do the same.
“Oh – I forgot about that.”
Naw – I don’t think you did. You just didn’t want to deal with it, or how you felt about it.
Being true to yourself means witnessing the ways you are denying reality.
Every one has the capacity to be manipulative. To twist the intention. Those who say they don’t haven’t created a strong enough foundation within themselves to look at the ways they are.
It can be terrifying to do. So be patient. With yourself and others.
January 4, 2023
We learn about love by exploring all of the ways in which we are consumed by what is unloving.
Jealousy, judgement, resentment – these exist in our bodies, our cells – our memories. They consume us more with every effort we make to assert that we must only be loving, that we must only be kind. That we can only offer Light.
Do not fall for the illusory nature conditioned into the human psyche, that states you cannot be anything but Love.
Of course you can be! And you are! You live here, at this time, when the un-loving nature of humanity is at its maximum external disclosure.
Where do you think this un-loving nature of reality comes from?
It comes from the shadows that live within you, which you refuse to acknowledge are alive within you.
A lot of humans have the best of intentions – they seek to bring light and love to this planet.
But one must face the ways they are fuelled by the unsightly elements of human illusion – the desire for power, attention, control – if they are to be effective on this path.
The shadows of humanity are alive in all of us in some way. If they weren’t, we wouldn’t be living through this cyclical experience – the replication & rhyming of moments in history we thought had long since past.
Tyranny would not be at our door steps, in our homes, in our families if it weren’t alive in us in some way.
Where do you seek power & control?
Where do you deny the existence of anything that isn’t in alignment with what you want?
Where are you refusing to look?
Where within your structural foundation – your code – are you being motivated and driven by something other than Love?
Your courage to examine these places within is your True contribution to humanity.
December 24, 2022
The goal is to build a legacy using the dying world – to use the dregs of the old world to build a new one.
So your sadness and grief about what is dying might be psychologically debilitating, but at the same time, as you walk through the rubble of debris crying, wrestling with the Truth, you’ll find a really beautiful support beam made of cedar that you can use to create a mantlepiece in your new home.
One day. Not yet.
It’s not entirely practical to burn the whole place down without looking to see what’s needed for the rebuild. If there’s perfectly good supplies – maybe aspects of old systems and groups that could be refurbished and used in a new way – it’s best to be optimistic about the potential in that resourceful nature.
You might want a fresh start, and you’re getting one, albeit one that may smoulder for a while – but there’s still some loose ends that have yet to show up in your consciousness. Bricks that need to be unearthed.
The mind has a motive that has yet to be seen, maybe one that’s not all yours.
Truth builds new systems. And Truth is informed by the death of systems that weren’t truthful.
Illusion creates disillusion, which allows the Truth to be seen. Illusion is an ingredient of Truth. Don’t hate it so hard. Thank it.
Larger than life plans can’t be executed without a commitment to some form of conventionality, born of the old world, while unequivocally embracing the new one.
You don’t want a 9-5 job? OK. Not realistic to think you can only work 2 days a week.
What are you going to do with all that energy? It has to be put somewhere. This is initiatory energy – of a creative project/work (one in the same) – it has to go somewhere. Or else you’ll go fucking crazy.
You need a strategy. And strategy is informed by the spark of life – creative self expression. It’s confusing because it tells you what your parents didn’t: what lights you up has practical application. What you feel love towards has a place in the world.
You just have to get reacquainted with Love.
December 21, 2022
We were all coerced into blaming each other. We don’t have to keep doing it.
It takes up so much energy to blame. I’d rather we both read a book about other realms. Still, it’s hard. We’ve been trained to blame – talk about an idealized relationship that is anything but ideal. So we will get some energy coming up (right now? Can you feel it?) that may help us (free will universe – ie you have choice) to look at that what’s been going on and consider,
Is this blame practical? Is it serving me, day to day? Will it help me long term?
What WILL help me long term? What do I really need, long term? How do I develop it and foster it?
What might I want to seek – what kind of journey might I want to take, that reaches beyond the confines of searching for someone to be at fault for these really big feelings I’m feeling?
IT’S NEVER TOO LATE TO DO WHAT YOU LOVE.
December 20 2022
“When we blame it takes us from our center – we become victims, we lose our agency in the world and we become small.
As we instead follow the guidance to become responsible for our emotions and our ways of relating, in time we discover we feel more ourselves now than ever previously.
As the habitual patterning begins to fall away, we act, speak and think from the deeper core of who we are. What does that mean?
It means we are empowered to speak and live from a deeper truth, to live a life of alignment and integrity inside and out – to live as we were designed.
And in that there is a natural “goodness” – one that equally honours our existence as well as another’s.
It is not selfish, but rather generous and more abundant than we can imagine.“
– Tamara Staudt in the preface to “Twelve Characters – A Transmission of Wang Fengyi’s Teachings”
December 10, 2022
Why are we seeking refuge in burning houses?
Why are we giving so much weight to the proclamations of systems that are in flames?
Why are we seeking counsel on how to put out a fire
From oligarch’s whose homes are burning to the ground?
And who says the fire needs to be put out?
Maybe we need to trust the flames, and their process. Stop pathologizing them.
Maybe there’s a Phoenix wanting to rise, and we keep dousing it with water.