What is this feeling?
Feels like, “i don’t want to lose you. Even though i think i already have.”
Can’t NOT move forward. Cuz you believe in something. More than you’ve ever believed before.
But this suffering throughout the awakening of a belief you’d sign your life away on? Wow. That’s not for the faint of heart.
How could this tear in the fabric of your everything be in any way good?
And why would you want to change the way you love those you’ve long felt loved you back?
How do you entertain a love that has been radicalized into a frequency that feels intolerable?
One sentence – “I believe…..” – and it’s all changed. Forever.
How do you accept that you feel so rejected – so hurt – that it’s easier than placing a drive thru McNotEdible nugget order to join ’em in a tale as old as time – establishment induced finger pointing?
And what is it about this experience that is asking you to radicalize the way you love your self? For your need to go towards a Truth so many will do their darnedest not to see?
What must we come to terms with in the area of owning and committing to growing our self will – the will within which not only desires but NEEDS us to be truthful to our hearts story – No matter what kind of elbows attempt to press into our throats?
How can we be true to ourselves while others scream that we dare not do so?
An impossible task? Sure feels like it. But not if you remain open to discovering what matters to You.
You don’t have to be flamboyant about it. But you can. Anything goes. And creativity is your upper hand.
Just make sure you don’t hit anyone with it.